i hope that when you tell him to stop he wont.. also a little part of me wishes that youd die in a hole…

im glad i dont have to see you anymore.. not in a mean way im just kinda looking forward to not having panic attacks every time i see you or when you come up in my mind.. sure im extremely depressed and by now im feeling like im gonna shoot myself soon.. im just a time bomb waiting to go off.. who knows maybe ill murder your prince charming.. :P jk? i feel like im taking this in verry well but i know its going to hit me sooner or later… ive been cutting.. alot actually my thighs mostly i almost have my whole left thigh bloody and my sides dont appreciate me either.. hopefully when i kill myself ill feel better. i cant believe you. you led me on to think you were this sweet innocent spirit.. when actually youre just a really horrible person.. 

i never thought id see the day your lips touch his.. i was foolish to think you ever cared.. youre really living up to your name.. you cold hearted bitch.. you dont even have the fucking decency to not do that infront of me? do you think this is easy you fucking asshole! i hope youre truly happy with youself.. god how do you sleep at night? i hope you truly dont care about me anymore because i always cared about you and now i will never truly forgive you for this.. i hope that atleast he was worth it to you because you just lost one of the verry few people who truly care about you.. and if youre reading this and you know who you are.. if you have a fucking problem tell it to my face you fucking coward! i wont think twice before knocking your sorry ass out.. try me you prick! youre nothing to me.. she was the one protecting you but now that this is over i have no reason not to hurt you and put you in the fucking hospital because i really dont give a shit about you.. try me.. 

youre a joke.. now youre just doing this for your amusement.. keep pushing my limmits see what happens